I’ve been getting a massive dose of “reality check” lately…and discovered that while Denial may be a place to vacation for a day or two, it’s not somewhere to take up residency.
And I did this.
For far too long.
Lately, the Lord has been peeling my hands off my eyes and revealing things that I need to see.
Sad, painful, ugly truth.
However, seeing truth is not enough.
It’s what I choose to do with this truth that will set me free –
– or leave me in bondage.
Often, the mere task of deciding what to make for dinner has been so overwhelming that I have a meltdown. Simple meal preparation feels like more than I can handle.
These are days of sorting out unhealthy behavior, taking in the whole counsel of God, being brave, and standing firm.
There comes a time when we must say, “Enough!”
I feel like a field that’s being thoroughly plowed at the moment. Things previously unseen are being brought to light.
This is good news, for after the plowing comes the planting – then growth – then a harvest.
God is good at what He does, so I am in good hands.
When one has walked in denial, though (as I have all my life), learning to face the truth – and then bravely doing what needs to be done is hard. It is scary.
Thankfully, the Lord let me know that I can trade in my headless collar for an Anchor!
I’ve learned the lesson of an unmanageable life. A life beyond my control – circumstances beyond my control.
Having done so, I no longer need my rhinestone circlet to hang on my wall as a reminder.
Instead, I’m in the market for an anchor… which is kinda’ funny, because I got rid of the Asian decorative stuff in my house and have been replacing it with ocean-ish stuff. (I love yard sales!)
In 2005, I realized that I had four main Scriptures to which I would cling in times of adversity:
Jeremiah 29:11 – His plans for me are for good, and not evil, this will end gloriously!
2 Cor. 4: 19 – in light of eternity, this is momentary…and will end gloriously!
Deut. 33:27 – God is my refuge, underneath me at all times are His arms, ready to catch me if I fall.
Romans 8:28 – This is all being worked together for my good – and will end gloriously!
Now I have new ones:
“Behold, the former things have come to pass,
and new things I now declare;
before they spring forth
I tell you of them.”
Strengthen the feeble hands, steady the knees that give way; say to those with fearful hearts, “Be strong, do not fear; your God will come, he will come with vengeance; with divine retribution he will come to save you.” Then will the eyes of the blind be opened and the ears of the deaf unstopped. Then will the lame leap like a deer, and the mute tongue shout for joy. Water will gush forth in the wilderness and streams in the desert.
Being transformed, I’ve discovered, means having what I believe and how I think adjusted to what is true…about the Lord, about me, and about life in general: a renewed mind.
Sometimes the paradigm shift this brings alters the course of life by a few degrees. At other times, it’s more like a 90-degree adjustment. These days it’s more like a 180! The greater the shift, the more stressful it can be due to opposition from others.
So I ask for your prayers: that I will continue to allow the Lord to transform me and not harden my heart; that I will stand firm and be brave; and that I will walk in a manner that is worthy of the Lord.
Thanks for “listening.”