Freedom

22 07 2014

As stated in my last post, my theology sadly lacked throughout most of my life.

I gave my heart to Jesus as a little kid. I was so relieved to find someone who loved me!

During my teen years, I learned that He had a wonderful plan for my life…

…so long as I followed the rules.

I married a fellow I met at Bible college. If anything was going to get God’s favor, I thought, that would surely fit the bill.

The marriage was doomed to failure from the beginning. The poor guy couldn’t “be Jesus” for me. That’s what I wanted, a savior.

After a couple of failed suicide attempts, I “knew” for sure that no one loved me…even God didn’t want me.

And that was my perception of God for the next two and a half decades.

Sorry that He’d ever created me.

During my mom’s short illness and then death, though, God was so close I could almost hear Him breathe.

He wrapped me in Comfort, and supported me like never before.

He DID love me!

In all my ‘figuring’ about life and God and stuff, I’d failed to understand the importance of the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil which God placed in the Garden of Eden.

To me it was the most unloving thing He ever did. Why put a tree there that could cause separation between man and Himself?

The answer is surprising.

Freedom to choose.

We weren’t locked into a relationship with God, with no choice to do anything else.

He gave man a chance to decide for himself whom he would love and serve.

We know the rest of the story.

It lives out all around us today.

Every day people choose to do their own thing…

…steal

…kill

…destroy.

These things involve relationships…people.

You

Me

A look at the Ten Commandments will reveal that every one of them has to do with relationship…

…love God

…love others

When we choose to live independent of God’s laws, people get hurt.

You

Me

The things that have caused me the most pain in my life have been people.

People who lived outside God’s stated guidelines for how life works best for everyone concerned.

Yes, He could step in and “take ’em out.” The weird thing is that He loves them, too.

He is not willing that any should perish.

He wants us all.

And so He gives every man, woman, and child the freedom to choose.

Then, cleans up the messes they make when they reject Him and His ways.

He’s cleaned up many of the wounds left in me by other humans (and continues to do so, I might add).

He’s also cleaned up many of the wounds I caused in others (Thank You, Lord!).

Further, by giving the freedom to choose, there is the added benefit when we end up in the mire of our choice and desperate for help. It isn’t until the pain is intense enough that many of us ever considered the need for our Creator.

Guess what? Some of the ugliest stuff in my story is now the platform from which I can testify of the goodness of God…

…a platform I would not otherwise have.

(Ever had someone who’s never “been there, done that, and bought all the souvenirs” try to counsel you through a tough time? They may speak truth, but it’s hard to ‘connect’ with them; they have no experience in the matter, only theory.)

God never wastes anything!

I don’t have this ‘all figured out’ by a long shot. I’m mostly thinking out loud. If this post sounds like a ramble, that’s because it is!

The bottom line, I guess, is that I like the freedom to choose how I’m going to live life. If I can have this, then others must be allowed to do the same…even if their choice is to commit evil against others.

I suppose at the end of the day, God can still be blamed. After all, He did plant that tree in the garden. He wasn’t content to have a relationship with us simply because we had no other option.

It’s only when love can choose that it is love at all.

Sadly, that means the freedom to choose Satan’s will and way, if that’s what they really want.

God, being no respecter of persons, is very “black-and-white” in this regard:

Freedom for none,

or freedom for all.

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12 responses

23 07 2014
StephenWhoElse

Sometimes we “ramble” to release the thoughts stuck inside us. But your ramblings always touch the reader and causes us to reflect on our own situations.

Indeed, the “souvenirs” you have brought back have been a blessing to us 🙂

23 07 2014
lessonsbyheart

Thanks, Stephen. I’m at the ‘souvenir shop buying more stuff at the moment. My posts are pretty vague right now, so it’s encouraging to know that posts are speaking to someone on some level!

In time I’ll be able to write more plainly, but not now.

\o/

23 07 2014
StephenWhoElse

One thing I have learned, sometimes our writings speak to the person, but other times they speak to the spirit.

Our ramblings may look disorganized but on a spiritual level it may connect with someone 🙂

23 07 2014
lessonsbyheart

🙂

22 07 2014
blmaluso

Very true words…gives me MUCH to think about. You are So right. In order for love to exist, it must be freely given and freely received. Anything less than that is not love at all.

Blessings, Bernadette

22 07 2014
lessonsbyheart

Thanks, Bernadette. 🙂

May the Lord’s face shine especially bright upon you today!

\o/

22 07 2014
paulfg

Tami – keep rambling, thinking out aloud. You are beautiful!!

22 07 2014
lessonsbyheart

There are many things I’m trying to work out right now. In some ways God makes no sense to me at all. To the extent that I don’t understand, I realize that I don’t really know Him. Oh, how I want to!

\o/

22 07 2014
paulfg

A thought slides into my mind. And I do not know if this is scientifically correct (!) – for me that is not important.

Whales find their mate in the vast oceans by gliding past each other. And that glide produces either a yes or a no. And when a glide-by produces whale fireworks and a deep ocean “yes siree!” – then that is all they need to stay together for life.

I don’t understand that – but I think it is beautiful and describes so well the sense I get with my heavenly father. Real enough to know. Weird enough to not understand all of it. Beautiful enough to not have to.

🙂

22 07 2014
lessonsbyheart

Thanks. Your words speak to me in a way I can’t explain at the moment…and not in the way you intended. They are meant for another matter I’m dealing with. Thank you for sharing. 🙂

\o/

22 07 2014
blmaluso

Tami…your honesty brings to mind the following scripture:

23 Jesus said to him, “If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes.”

24 Immediately the father of the child cried out and said with tears, “Lord, I believe; help my unbelief!”

25 When Jesus saw that the people came running together, He rebuked the unclean spirit, saying to it: “Deaf and dumb spirit, I command you, come out of him and enter him no more!”

“Lord, I believe; help my unbelief!” An honest, simple prayer. We all feel it at times, and it is ok to talk to God freely:-)

With love, Bernadette

22 07 2014
lessonsbyheart

Funny, I just typed that very prayer to my support friend! In fact, I like that prayer so much that I wrote it into a song. There might be a link to it at the top of my blog ( although I need to redo the recording 🙂 )

Thanks for your encouragement I need all I can get right now. {hugs}

\o/

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